This isn’t my cry for your forgiveness, this isn’t a relief of guilt, this is me coming to terms at how pathetic I’ve been and how you truly deserve better. I want to promise things will be better and that I’ll try for you but I know my word means nothing and that you can see I’m past tired from this bullshit, this isolation and down right stupidity by my experiences this year. I’ve never found support in what’s meant to be there for you and I only was ever able to turn to you but it wasn’t enough. I just can’t get back on this horse, even with my clock counting down the days. I find it easier for you to just feel ashamed of me than have to visit my own personal hell.

I know I’m a shit person but I love you and one day you’ll be proud.

but this means the world to me.

Don’t really have anything useful to add, I had plenty of photos to upload except my memory card become corrupt, life is trolling.

More updates/promised cool shit from ages ago still coming soon.

My life in a nutshell..

Don’t cheap out.. it’s not like I’m eating meat or cheese.. the most expensive part.

Should just learn to cook.

One day, my love, I will own your bigger, more expensive, brother.

To bad not even this can put a smile on my face lately.

1) Need some stuff to go my way.
2) Fuck off, creep.
3) why..

I really need more of both of these. I’m having such a hard time lately and I really don’t know what to reach for.

Please let shit start going my way.

2) get into the course I want.

3) buy a vinyl player.

4) see where this relationship goes.

5) decide on a new phone plan.

6) add a new facebook photo.

When I can be bothered.